Confessions of a yoga teacher: A new journey to reignite passion & find balance
I have been hungry to deepen my yoga practice for months and have been slowly doing so in a variety of ways.
I’ve written about some of this here on the blog.
But here’s the secret I feel a little ashamed to admit: I have felt like lately I have been teaching asana more than I’ve been practicing asana (a big no no that may surprise and offend some people) and I temporarily lost some of my excitement for the physical practice.
Even though I was practicing off of my yoga mat through meditation, breath regulation, kindness and turning inward I missed that jazzed feeling I’d get before I would unroll my mat to practice the postures that used to light me up. I felt flat and bored. I have felt fearful that I’m bringing this energy to my students.
In my experience a simple shift in perspective can bring about miracles (as said by Pema Chodron). So I recently made the decision to join the Yoga Class Curator program with Susanna Barkataki to deepen my knowledge and understanding of the roots of yoga and how to honor them in the modern world.
I joined to reconnect with my excitement for this beautiful whole person system that is yoga.
I am so excited to dive into a YEAR of study and practice with the inspiring Susanna Barkataki who is keeping the roots of yoga alive.
I am excited to learn from an Indian teacher.
I am excited to enliven my own practice of being in this body called Brennah and leading her to drink from the waters of eternity, wisdom, service and bliss.
We all have to start from where we are, so here I am starting from where I am:
In a moment of tenderheartedness after a breakup.
In a moment of feeling a little lost as the world shifts and changes rapidly around me.
In a moment of wanting with my whole heart to stay in integrity with my words, deeds and self.
In a moment where my desire to serve is at an all time high.
I’m ready to let go of some facets of my experience as a teacher.
Gone are the days of blindly repeating things I’ve heard my teachers say.
Gone are the days of hoping no one will show up to my class so that I can just go home.
Gone are the days where I feel equity and trauma informed practices are someone else’s problem and someone else’s responsibility.
The world needs yoga…
…and I’m relieved to admit that while I may have been appropriating before I am stepping into a new awareness and program to help honor yogas roots. This doesn’t make me suddenly perfect but I am calling myself to a new level of being.
I’m here to help raise the vibration of the planet beginning between my two ears. I am using my relative power and privilege in the best way I know how. Being able to take this program is an honor and a gift.
I want to honor this work I get to do to the absolute best of my ability.
I’ve already been reminded of so much from our first module in Yoga Class Curator, I’m excited and feel reignited.
Leave a comment below:
How do you feel about your own yoga practice?
Do you practice only the physical postures or the other pieces of yoga also?
Do you teach?
What is your favorite part about teaching?
What is challenging for you right now?
